My first vision.. and it changed my life

When I was around seven, I had a moment which could only be described as a mystical or psychic vision. Time slowed down, and my world would never be the same again.

I was in the playground of the primary school in London I attended with my brother, and everything around me seemed to fade away.

Light fell upon me and there was a sense of connecting to everything, yet nothing. I was filled with light, yet could still see the light.

In that moment, it felt like I was one with the energy of God.

It felt like I was filled with the light of God...

I received the message that I was to make the most out of my life: I was to live on purpose, and it seemed like it wouldn't be a normal life. It felt like I wouldn't get married and have children, instead, I would follow my calling.

But I had no idea how that looked!

I can't remember what happened before that moment, and I can't remember what happened afterwards, but I know I was changed forever.

Whenever life was challenging I’d look to see how I could learn from the experience and often wondered if it was my karma coming back to me. I knew I was a soul in a body, and had been here before. I felt like I was here to help those around me - I was here to be of service.

We’d attended Sunday school for a while and I knew enough of the Bible to get a sense of who Jesus was and what he stood for and I wanted to be like him - though I’d forget this feeling as the years went on.

Later in high school, as we learnt more about different religions I, like many before me, had the sense that all paths led to the same place - oneness and love. I felt there was one almighty Creator or God, and many interpretations along with many beings who were deemed to be gods such as Thoth, Ra, Isis or Jesus. I intuitively knew these beings were like angels: light beings with great powers who’d learned to harness the powers of nature and their own creative abilities.

I struggled to fit in and didn't see where my place in life was. I often wondered whether to join a monastic order or live in a convent because my faith was truly so strong I wanted my life to reflect that. However, I had no idea at the time how many variations our spiritual path can take, and that living in the secular world also could honour our faith!

I was somewhat confused for many years, as I knew I was good at learning and had the capacity to turn my hand to almost anything, but what I didn’t know was how to choose what to do! I didn't know how to pray and I didn't know how to ask from help from my higher self or from the guides who were around me (as they are around everyone).

I had no helpful spiritual tools in my tool box.

What I didn't know back then was that every time I pondered a question internally, I was actually making a prayer and would often receive answers in the form of images or streams of information which gained traction as I grew older.

In my school years this searching for knowledge and understanding beyond the here and now, beyond the physical realm, led to me to asking questions the teachers couldn't always answer. Some thought I was being obstinate or awkward when really all I wanted was the truth, and more information than was readily available.

I went on to study maths and philosophy in University and as my interest in maths faded away, my interest in philosophy grew as I realised my mind was like the inside of a philosophy book and had been since I could first think!

I constantly questioned the nature of reality and wondered what path I could or should take in my life.

I watched others who were clear on their path and was so jealous they seemed to know for sure where they were heading! Their ship was set to sail and I was still in the harbour unable to decide where to head or where to focus my attention. It seemed ironic that I’d receive a vision that felt so important, but wouldn’t have clarity as to what I should do with my life!

However, the vision had inspired me and I continued to be inspired by Jesus and sought to do right, keenly feeling guilt if I knew I’d wronged someone or thought badly of them, and this feeling continues to this day.

This first vision would not only lay the foundation to my wanting to well by others, but it lay the foundation of many more visions and the activation of my inner sight.

I didn't realise until a few years ago that not everyone had such internal visualisations and had no idea that the inner knowings I had were part of accessing my clarecognizance, and this has helped and guided me on and off for most of my life.

In the last 10 years, I’ve clarified my spiritual practise and ask for help daily so I can be of service in this time of great change.

Each of the following visions I received and the different phases of kundalini awakening built on the previous one and my faith grew as did the insights I received as they helped me make peace with life and the world around me and find the path I’m now walking.

If you’d like to share your own visions and stories of awakening, please do reach out, it’s so wonderful to hear people’s personal revelations and those moments when their life was changed forever!

It isn’t always easy to walk your own path following spiritual awakening, visions or inspirations but it sure does feel better than going against your own heart!

Connect with me through the website or email me at carolinemaryandrews@hotmail.com to share your story or if you feel like I can be of service to you on your journey.

With so much love and so many blessings to you,

Caroline Mary x